Hello all, I've just joined this community and I thought I'd introduce myself. I'm eighteen and a virgin, and I had never been able to use tampons or insert anything into my vagina -- it was always too painful. So I went to my GP for a gynecological exam because I thought there might be something wrong with my hymen. I know that some girls have a hymen that is too thick and needs to be surgically removed. So she performed her little exam and told me I was physically normal. She inserted a finger, which was agony, and she told me that I subconsciously tighten up whenever anything gets near me which makes me even smaller than I already am. I was supposed to examine myself at home and come back three weeks later to tell her how I got on, but I was still unable to insert anything. She then told me that I might have vaginismus and referred me to psycho-sexual health clinic. I haven't made an appointment yet, but I plan too, even though the thought of it fills me with dread.
I'm very confused and upset by all this -- I always thought vaginismus came as the result of sexual abuse, or a very bad sexual experience, so I'm having a hard time understanding why this is happening to me. I constantly worry about it, it's always in the back of my mind. I worry about the effect this will have on future relationships. I feel like no guy will ever want to enter into a relationship with me knowing that I am the way I am, and I'm scared that I'll never be able to have sex.
Anyway, I'm sorry this was so long. I'm just so glad to have found a place where I can talk about this with people who are going through the same thing.